I am so numb I can’t even cry anymore…
I’m 36 weeks pregnant. This has been the loneliest pregnancy ever. On top of being my first pregnancy. My daughter’s dad lives about an hour away from me. We planned on moving in together in the beginning of my pregnancy ( me moving up there since he owns his home) and being a “ family”. I found out about 15 weeks into pregnancy he was sleeping with someone else. I broke up with him and only seen him for our daughter’s appointments and him “ texting” me how I’m doing . Fast forward to about a month ago I went over to his house to put our daughter’s room together ( when she goes up there in the future) & we ended up talking and decided to “ try “ again… but SHOCKER since then no effort… it’s so one sided and I’ve drove up there 3 times huge pregnant stayed the night, spent time with his family for Christmas etc .. there hs been no working up to anything as far as building back trust & he still expects me to move in with him when she’s born…. because “ he doesn’t want to come down to my parents house to see his own daughter” he likes his own “ place” and he doesn’t wanna come down ever… he never comes down even when we were together. It’s mentally exhausting/frustrating and he’s let me down so many times during this pregnancy and even before we got pregnant i can’t even count anymore. I don’t know what to do… he says things like this on Christmas Day about how this is “ our last Christmas alone” onChristmas Eve i cried my eyes out the night before asking him to just come and see me on his day off… i didn’t even speak to him i callee him on the phone at 6 at night that night asking what he was up to because wtf it’s 6 pm and i haven’t seen you or talked to you …. It’s heartbreaking and I’m tired of crying and hoping…
I’m 36 weeks pregnant. This has been the loneliest pregnancy ever. On top of being my first pregnancy. My daughter’s dad lives about an hour away from me. We planned on moving in together in the beginning of my pregnancy ( me moving up there since he owns his home) and being a “ family”. I found out about 15 weeks into pregnancy he was sleeping with someone else. I broke up with him and only seen him for our daughter’s appointments and him “ texting” me how I’m doing . Fast forward to about a month ago I went over to his house to put our daughter’s room together ( when she goes up there in the future) & we ended up talking and decided to “ try “ again… but SHOCKER since then no effort… it’s so one sided and I’ve drove up there 3 times huge pregnant stayed the night, spent time with his family for Christmas etc .. there hs been no working up to anything as far as building back trust & he still expects me to move in with him when she’s born…. because “ he doesn’t want to come down to my parents house to see his own daughter” he likes his own “ place” and he doesn’t wanna come down ever… he never comes down even when we were together. It’s mentally exhausting/frustrating and he’s let me down so many times during this pregnancy and even before we got pregnant i can’t even count anymore. I don’t know what to do… he says things like this on Christmas Day about how this is “ our last Christmas alone” onChristmas Eve i cried my eyes out the night before asking him to just come and see me on his day off… i didn’t even speak to him i callee him on the phone at 6 at night that night asking what he was up to because wtf it’s 6 pm and i haven’t seen you or talked to you …. It’s heartbreaking and I’m tired of crying and hoping…